What does she see...? That is a question that gives her pause from her rant, although it is not a question lacking an answer. It's more how to word it that causes Anastasia to take a long, thoughtful look into the flickering light of the Grace before her, exactly what's driven her to this point. Vengeance isn't quite right, even if she's resentful of many things...
It is only after a considerable pause that she answers, her voice softer than before, her prior anger settling into a quiet determination. "The people. The few who still live here. Some of my fellow Tarnished, I guess. None of us chose to be here, did we? Before this I remember..." A brief pause, Anastasia isn't entirely sure how much she wants to open up about but she does realize she has little to gain from secrets. The advantage of a humble background, she has little worth hiding. "I died. That's where most of us Tarnished come from, right? We died... and answered some sort of call. Grace this, Order that, did any of us agree to fight this battle? I thought I'd woken up in some sort of hell, a nightmare I can't wake up from."
Her gaze shifts from the soft light in front of her to the Doll sitting in the room, and even with her face obscured with a helmet the way she carries herself still obviously changes. The fatigue that threatened to overtake her, the weariness already trying to settle into her very soul takes a back seat to quiet focus and determination. What she must do. "I can see the Guidance... and the few who care to take note seem to think this is something great. All that seems to mean is that I can see the light in the sky that seems intent on guiding me into certain death. I don't think I'm any sort of hero, and frankly I refuse to believe I'm some kind of chosen one. If I am, it is certainly no gift. I'm one woman with a sword and a splash of magic I barely understand, but..."
She's rambling. There's no clear direction to her words and she realizes this, it's far more than she can hope to sort out in the span of a single conversation and she shakes her head, as if to try to clear her thoughts. "... someone has to try. And if that someone has to be me, so be it."
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It is only after a considerable pause that she answers, her voice softer than before, her prior anger settling into a quiet determination. "The people. The few who still live here. Some of my fellow Tarnished, I guess. None of us chose to be here, did we? Before this I remember..." A brief pause, Anastasia isn't entirely sure how much she wants to open up about but she does realize she has little to gain from secrets. The advantage of a humble background, she has little worth hiding. "I died. That's where most of us Tarnished come from, right? We died... and answered some sort of call. Grace this, Order that, did any of us agree to fight this battle? I thought I'd woken up in some sort of hell, a nightmare I can't wake up from."
Her gaze shifts from the soft light in front of her to the Doll sitting in the room, and even with her face obscured with a helmet the way she carries herself still obviously changes. The fatigue that threatened to overtake her, the weariness already trying to settle into her very soul takes a back seat to quiet focus and determination. What she must do. "I can see the Guidance... and the few who care to take note seem to think this is something great. All that seems to mean is that I can see the light in the sky that seems intent on guiding me into certain death. I don't think I'm any sort of hero, and frankly I refuse to believe I'm some kind of chosen one. If I am, it is certainly no gift. I'm one woman with a sword and a splash of magic I barely understand, but..."
She's rambling. There's no clear direction to her words and she realizes this, it's far more than she can hope to sort out in the span of a single conversation and she shakes her head, as if to try to clear her thoughts. "... someone has to try. And if that someone has to be me, so be it."