The thought that Jayce had to suffer that much just to be able to bring him these memories to shake him loose from the hexcore-- it is intolerable. If he in every world needs a Jayce to show him the way, is that just his destiny? To make every Jayce suffer, just so every Viktor doesn't destroy their world?
How can Jayce still look at him? Still kiss him with such tenderness? Viktor's half-tempted to throw some kind of fit and kick Jayce out, just in the hope that he'll make his way back to a cushy Piltover life where he might suffer the least. The urge to push him away is, for a moment, all consuming. Viktor puts a hand to Jayce's chest, metal fingertips curling over bare skin, and thinks about it -- thinks about exactly what poison he can spill in Jayce's ear to make him leave and never look back.
But in the end, he is too selfish to go through with it.
He... thinks he needs Jayce's help to set things right. And he cannot bear the thought of making Jayce leave, not when they've finally acknowledged things between them. A stronger man would cut Jayce loose, perhaps. In this moment, Viktor is not feeling particularly strong. ]
Will you help me?
[ He sounds hollow. Lost. Jayce may not have an innate understanding of that arcane space like he does, but he will still be invaluable. ]
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The thought that Jayce had to suffer that much just to be able to bring him these memories to shake him loose from the hexcore-- it is intolerable. If he in every world needs a Jayce to show him the way, is that just his destiny? To make every Jayce suffer, just so every Viktor doesn't destroy their world?
How can Jayce still look at him? Still kiss him with such tenderness? Viktor's half-tempted to throw some kind of fit and kick Jayce out, just in the hope that he'll make his way back to a cushy Piltover life where he might suffer the least. The urge to push him away is, for a moment, all consuming. Viktor puts a hand to Jayce's chest, metal fingertips curling over bare skin, and thinks about it -- thinks about exactly what poison he can spill in Jayce's ear to make him leave and never look back.
But in the end, he is too selfish to go through with it.
He... thinks he needs Jayce's help to set things right. And he cannot bear the thought of making Jayce leave, not when they've finally acknowledged things between them. A stronger man would cut Jayce loose, perhaps. In this moment, Viktor is not feeling particularly strong. ]
Will you help me?
[ He sounds hollow. Lost. Jayce may not have an innate understanding of that arcane space like he does, but he will still be invaluable. ]
I always did do my best work with your help.